Where does the time go?
And I'm only 20.
How am I going to feel when I'm 40? 60? 103?
Even though I've grown up, moved away from home and have new friends, some things never change. I'm still a hopeless romantic. I'm still extremely shy. I still love watching Disney shows. I'm still a people pleaser. I would still rather hang out with my family than get completely wasted at a frat party.
Part of me wishes I could change, but I don't think I'm a horrible person.
I would be my friend if I were someone else.
I love Christmas time. That's never changed. The songs. The weather. Just the spirit of it all. Everyone seems happier and the world just seems like a brighter place to live.
I have a new found love for John Mayer. He really is a great artist. I've just added his new cd to my Christmas Wish List...I hope someone reads this and gets it for me. *cough cough* daddy *cough cough*
"Just when I had you off my head. Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed. You say you wanna try again, but I've tried everything but giving in. Why you wanna break my heart again. Why am I gonna let you try? When all we ever do is say goodbye."
Do people really fall in love forever? Are people ever truly happy with the people they "love"?
I'm still waiting for my movie romance...but I'm doubting it's ever going to happen.
I don't want a knight in shining armor anymore...I will settle for a flawed, handsome, millionaire.
Or at least someone that will make the first move, treat me like I've never been treated, adore me forever, and has a family that loves me like one of their own.
I can never seem to get all of those traits together. I keep dating people that have a few of the qualities I like, never all of them.
Are my standards too high?
I feel if I lower them I'll never be happy in life.
I just found out that Taylor Swift sings a song with John Mayer! Yes, I do need his new album.
I want to escape reality. I think that's why I love movies and tv so much. They give me a chance to get away from life for a while. That's why I watch a movie a day, to keep me calm. To keep me from not stressing about life.
What is it about working out that makes me feel cool? Is it the fact that all the skinny, pretty people do it and I want to look like them? Or is it that I'm just really weird?
Yet for some reason, I still can't make myself do it all the time.
I've been brave lately. Talked to people that I would normally not talk to. I'm very proud of myself. To outgoing people this may seem like nothing. But talking to the cute guy that sits next to me in class is a huge step in my book. I rewarded myself with a trip to Chilis...not good for my bank account. But made me feel better about myself.
I've been without my Macbook for most of this semester. It's been horrible. I've been living with my dad's little bitty blue Netbook. It's really small. I'm used to it now, but it gets annoying sometimes when I'm wanting to do something "Mac-y" and I can't. My charger broke. :( I need to get a new one, but Apple likes to make them about $70.
Random fact: I'm trying to lose 15 pounds before December 18th. Pray for me! Or just send me healthy snacks so I won't eat bad things for me.
I'm tired of people dogging the Cowboys. Just because you aren't a fan doesn't mean you have to be mean about them. I never understood intentionally putting down someone's favorite team when you know how they feel about them...and without a good reason. I'm also tired of people saying really mean things about Romo. I mean, I know he's not doing the best in the league right now, but he's not a horrible quarterback. And he's very young and hasn't had as much experience as some of the other QBs in the league. He didn't start playing till the 2006 season when he took over for Drew Bledsoe. It's only his 4th season as a starting quarterback...cut him some slack. I do get mad at him sometimes, ok, I get furious with him sometimes. But I'd like to see some of his naysayers do any better. And remember the Cowboys are 8-3 this season and 1st in the NFC East, they aren't a horrible team. And Romo did have 6 interception free games...would a horrible, no good quarterback do that? I mean he's no Peyton Manning, but I'm not giving up on him just yet.
...off my soapbox...
"I'm in the war of my life, at the door of my life, out of time and there's no where to run away."
